Who was I kidding?
I swear you would think I was fucking cursed! I’m already out of War Games! What kind of fucking hell is that?! All because I had to face a man which to whom I’ve already faced more times than the entire roster cares to face him even once. JJR. Am I asking for a death wish? Is there any particular reason why I seem to be immune to his torture? I don’t know…maybe I secretly ask for it…
The sound of glass hitting a brick wall as Hollywood was clearly drinking, smashing the now empty bottle.
I won’t even lie…I’m a fucking mess. With good fucking reason though! I’ve always been passionate about this company. I bleed ninety seven red all day every day…yet I have fucking NOTHING to fucking show for it! Zip. Zero. Fucking Zilch! I’m a two time HOW World Champion for fucks sake! GET YOUR FUCKING SHIT TOGETHER ASSHOLE!
Hollywood repeatedly hits himself in the head as he seems to be on the brink of insanity. Hollywood sighs.
No….you know what? Fuck JJR and fuck this entire HOW roster! There isn’t ONE god damn motherfucker on this roster who can survive being in the ring with JJR even as soon as their first match in the ring together! I’ve had what? Like four matches with the motherfucker now? Yet, I still walk away after the match every. Single. Time. Why do you think that is? I’ve actually had the last two weeks to think about that answer. It would seem like this is the part where I reveal I had an “enlightening” moment. I had a moment where I was able to see where I failed and why I failed and this is the part that I will tell you that I will correct about myself because I have myself figured out. Right? FUCK NO! That’s not how this is going to play out this time….
Hollywood didn’t want to be completely transparent, either, but he was at a point in his career where he was starting to feel that slight little tug of sympathy and importance in addressing his well being..which as of late, has been in the dumpster fire of all free falling well beings and you could tell just by looking at him that he was dejected and defeated.
When do we ultimately arrive at the red line that we’re not supposed to cross? I’ve crossed that line for much fucking less than I’m facing now. Truth to the matter is, maybe I just need to change my approach with all you motherfuckers and this company we call the machine. The machine is constantly spinning, constantly moving, right? So why break the cycle of tradition here and find an alternative approach to immediately execute the shit that’s on my mind? You know the sad part? I’m probably not only talking to myself, I’m probably answering myself as well, aren’t I?
Hollywood was, in fact, talking to himself and then answering himself.
What’s that phrase go? All good things come to an end? What if we’re just simply at the end of my career? I have something I can look back on and be proud of. Two time HOW World Champion, two time ICON Champion, two time LSD Champion and three time Tag Team Champion. Somebody call Mario, because I’m pretty sure I’m only two reigns behind him on the all time list of holding the Tag Team Championship. If I were you, Mario, I’d definitely be slightly worried about that stat right there. Luckily for you, I could give two fucks of a damn about teaming with anyone to try going after those HOW Tag Team Championships! Surely I could do something else?
Hollywood pretends to ponder just what that could be even though he didn’t need to because he already did. This was purely for dramatic effect ladies and gentlemen.
I suppose I could go for a second HOTv Championship reign. Good things apparently happen in twos when it comes to me so why the fuck not? The best part about all of this, though, is that I’d still be HOTv Champion if it weren’t for Jeffrey James Roberts. Now, I face a man who I literally do not think I can understand, let alone his absent vocabulary, STRONK Godson. I’m not saying I have a one hundred percent chance at beating him, I just know there’s always a chance. I have to figure out SOMETHING otherwise, I’ll just be left off another old card. That’s not what being a veteran of High Octane Wrestling is all about, mind you. In fact, someone of my stature, and what I’ve accomplished historical wise, I have every right to be on that god damn War Games card. I’m tired of being left behind and I’m sure as fuck tired of being ignored as a whole from this company. I have a chance at capturing the HOW HOTv Championship this Sunday, but what about everything else around me? It either doesn’t make an sense, or I’m just given enough to keep me from completely fading away from HOW.
With everything that was personally going on in Hollywood’s life, he couldn’t help but to think, even if it was just briefly, that both his professional and personal lives were in jeopardy. They had been filled with nothing but chaos and uncertainty and Hollywood had to have known that eventually, Gerald and even Buck, were going to catch up to him. Then there was the HOW front. He felt like he was fading not only from every week HOW Refueled shows, but from Pay Per Views and this was even after he failed to qualify from War Games….in the second fucking week. What was going on here? Hollywood never felt like he couldn’t have been any lower.
I don’t know…it’s just too strange to me. But you know what? I’ll be alright.
Hollywood wasn’t going to be alright.
I’m going to be completely honest with you, STRONK, you hold onto a title in which I consider sacred ground. You know how many god damn years and how many fucking matches I had to get involved or so I thought when it came to the HOTv Championship? Sure, it may not be the HOW World Championship…but it’s a championship none the less. Besides….I’ve never let anyone hold me back from winning yet another championship, no matter who’s standing in my way.
The truth is, STRONK, you’re simply holding onto that title until I come calling for it. I, unlike you, know what my purpose in this company is. You may not comprehensively understand that….but I fucking do! I’ve been in some of the cruelest, and the way you carry yourself has consistently seen what comes with defending the HOTv Championship week in and week out. You’re going to have nights where they don’t go your way and you’re obviously going to have nights where it does go your way. But let me leave you with a piece of advice. The devil always gets his due. You won’t remain HOTv Champion forever and it’s important that you know that. But I don’t just treat the HOTv Championship any different than I would the ICON, LSD or HOW World Championship. In my eyes, you’re a champion and you have to show the masses why you’re a champion. What are people going to remember about your legacy?
You don’t have an answer, do you? That’s because you’re not seeing the big picture. Its great to be the HOTv Champion…but it’s not always going to be like that.
Hollywood wasn’t trying to teach a class in this category, but yet that’s how he was coming off and it was annoying to him..it had seemed that there was more and more bothering Hollywood and he couldn’t stay focused and it shows.
Ugh. You know how daunting of a task it is to live a double life? You know…the life you want to have as a professional wrestler, but there’s another life that you’re trying to keep secret…or you’ve kept a secret for so long that it has now become toxic. That perfectly describes my life to a T at this point…
Now it was becoming to a point where Hollywood was just a distraction to himself and it showed. He was on edge and he was about to snap. Hollywood has seemed to becoming more and more unhinged and more unpredictable with what was going on in his head. You could see from his point of view, that he was falling apart. Hollywood had started treating a few extra moments in the day to meditate and this was important for him to do….simply put, Hollywood was reaching a point of no return and there was no one in his corner to help him along. He was blindsided again in a life that has become nothing more than the distraction he didn’t need. Hollywood plops his head downwards as he struggles to keep himself together. At this point, he was at a breaking point and it wouldn’t take much to cause him to snap. The question moving forward, though, is what happens when he does eventually snap? It seemed like we were heading down this road that nobody wanted to even dare venture as Hollywood shakes his head and couldn’t even finish addressing STRONK as the scene slowly fades to black as everyone wonders what could possibly happen if one more thing within Hollywood snaps…