My Heart is Heavy
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My Heart is Heavy

It’s hard to find the right words to express the grief I feel today as I mentally prepare to say my final good byes to my dear friend and colleague, Benny Newell. For the past twenty years, Benny and I were more than just the voices of High Octane Wrestling; we were brothers, confidants, and partners through every triumph and trial that the squared circle could throw at us.

We saw it all. From the wildest matches to the most unexpected twists, Benny and I were there, side by side, calling the action, living the highs and lows with every fan. He was more than just my co-announcer; he was my partner for better or worse through the chaos that is High Octane Wrestling. His wit, his passion, and his unfiltered honesty brought a unique energy to our broadcasts that can never be replaced.

Benny struggled with his demons, as many of us do. When he went into rehab for his drinking, it was one of the hardest battles he ever faced. I remember visiting him, encouraging him, and reminding him of his strength. It wasn’t easy, but Benny fought through it and came back to HOW with a renewed spirit. I was so proud of him for that, and I will always cherish the memories of his return, the fire in his eyes, and the laughter we shared.

But life has a way of throwing curveballs that even the toughest among us can’t always handle. The horrific accident at War Games, where fans lost their lives, was a tragedy that shook us all to our core. Clearly the weight of that tragedy was too much for him to bear, and he saw no other way out.

Losing Benny in such a heartbreaking manner is a pain that cuts deep. He was more than my colleague; he was family. To see him take his own life is a sorrow that I can hardly comprehend. Benny, you were loved by so many, and your absence leaves a void that will never be filled. I wish you had seen the light that we all saw in you, the strength and the courage that defined you.

Rest in peace, Benny. Your legacy will live on in every cheer, every gasp, and every tear shed in the ring. Thank you for the memories, the friendship, and the countless moments that made our journey unforgettable. You will be missed more than words can ever say.

With a heavy heart,

-Joe Hoffman